In the beginning...


I must admit that I want it all. I want happy children, a happy husband, a clean house, and let's face it, I want to be fit, strong, healthy, and look good when I leave the house.

I am a 30 year old woman. Not too young, and definitely not old. I have been married for 10 years and have given birth to six beautiful children, one of which passed away. I look back at pictures of myself when I got married and can see the physical changes in myself. I was never skinny, but I was strong and healthy. So what happened. After my first three children, losing the weight wasn't a problem. After Amelia (#4) was born and then after she died, I never lost all the weight and really never got it all together. Then comes #5 and I'm still somewhat heavy and #6 was a difficult pregnancy and he is now 4 1/2 months old and I still have trouble sitting up from a laying down position.

So, how do I fix this? What is the "right" answer? There is way too much information out there on weight loss and fitness, yet none of it seems to work for me at this point in my life. I don't want to leave my children to go to a class or the gym, the baby is too little. If I start a video at home, one of the kids needs something and I never get to finish. I need and want to put their needs first. In the process, I need to find a method that will allow me to continue practicing attachment parenting while allowing me to make some progress. Being strong and fit are great, but let's face it, my vanity is showing and I don't want to be this big forever.

I have talked with friends as well as a personal trainer, and realize that I am probably not alone. So, I am going to do something about it, and I am going to document it. I am excited about the possibilities and look forward to the weeks and months ahead!